Fear

Friday around noon I was able to have a massage. It had been a while, around eight weeks, since my last massage and I was looking forward to it. After the massage, I felt pretty good but I tightened up a lot that night.

Saturday was a tough day. I had my youngest's fifth birthday party and a lot of family over for that and I ended up taking more pain pills than normal to get me through the party. Saturday night came and I was really in a lot of pain.

And I was afraid.

You see, this level of pain was something I have not experienced since 21 August when the nerve was turned off. And I was now feeling it again.

And it scared me something fierce.

I ended up calling in to church and letting them know I was unable to attend on Sunday because I wanted to do whatever was needed to allow my back to heal. I spent the day just sitting and laying down. I still didn't feel the best Sunday evening so I took Monday off of work as well. Finally, now at 1845 I think I'm beginning to feel normal again and I think the increased pain is over. That was a very scary time for me worrying about whether the pain was coming back. It looks like it has passed now.