Am I Strange

In just a couple of hours I'm headed off to my neurosurgeon to go over the results of my myelogram. I'm hoping for a result of back surgery! How weird is that? I actually am going to an appointment with my doc wanting to hear I need back surgery! I just want to be able to fix this pain so I can go off all the meds I'm on and start being me again. I'm frustrated with the excuses that I can't do something because of my back problems. That gets old...being grumpy, not being able to lift things, and having to be near my medicine at all times. Ugh. Well, this strange guy is hoping for surgery...I'll know in a few hours.